:: prologue ::
When this began
I had nothin’ to say
And I’d get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I’d let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
Nothin’ to lose
Just stuck
Hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
Erase all the pain till it’s gone
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And I’ve got nothin’ to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
I was confused
Lookin’ everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
‘Cause I can’t justify the way everyone is lookin’ at me
Nothin’ to lose
Nothin’ to gain
Hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
Erase all the pain till it’s gone
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything till I break away from me
I will break away
I’ll find myself today
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
Erase all the pain till it’s gone
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I wanna heal
I wanna feel like I’m
Somewhere I belong
I wanna heal
I wanna feel like I’m
Somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong
Somewhere I Belong – Linkin Park
They say that life is a journey. A journey of discovery of your world, of those around you…of yourself. You oftentimes learn little things about yourself that, up until you embarked on such a journey, you never even knew. Sometimes those discoveries are positive, sometimes they are negative, and sometimes they are a mixed blessing.
My journey of discovery uncovered a great deal about my past that I was never made aware of. I never knew that I had a half sister overseas. I never knew the true reason for the obvious physical differences between myself and the rest of my family. I never knew who I truly was.
That is, until now.
I learned about my family. I found out why my family and I are so different from one another. And I discovered who I was.